Happy Easter! Cheers to new beginnings!!!

Happy Easter everyone! :D

I haven't blogged in awhile and I feel like I have about a thousand ideas. Things I want to write about but nothing really seems to be worth it enough to write about until now. Hahaha...because as I sit here the bu is sleeping soundly. He got off work around noon today, he started yesterday morning. No rest for the weary. Why did I decide to write today? Well, because there's really nothing more interesting for me to do and well, it's been quite awhile. 

So, what's new with me? A lot of things. Something major and a lot of little things in between. I've been struggling with having to balance my time, energy and attention. It's been crazy. But in the end it's been a lot of fun and well, I have friends who have my back every step of the way. So that makes up for all the stress. Now, if only I was loosing the extra inches I've put on with all the stress this would be perfect.

Moving on...decided to write today because it's Easter and a wonderful time to talk about new beginnings. :D That after all, is what Easter is all about. I have so many things to be thankful for. So many blessings and I feel like this year is a BIG year. I just hope I can juggle all these commitments. 

I am all excited about the new beginnings although I am a bit sad about the end of the old. I guess part of growing up is realizing that there is soooo much to do and so many things to accomplish that at some point you have to move on to bigger, better things. Let's see, I need to set a mtg with God and discuss these things. I think I might go crazy. hahaha...

I guess to sum it all up. I'm crazy scared about the prospect of new things because I am a creature of habit and my little circle of comfort is being disturbed. A lot. But then again...to be better you have to learn to take risks. :D So here's to new beginnings!

The Little Things :D

Since the boyfriend officially started his Residency I feel like I never get to see him when in fact we still see each other everyday except for duty days which is every 2 days. What sucks though is that he always seems to be soooo tired...no rest for the weary. So instead of heading out we usually end up staying home listening to music, catching up on shows and movies or sleep.

Most often than not he always has work to do since you don't really have much time to sit at a desk when you're at the hospital. So we spend our quality time sitting in bed doing his census. Time well spent. :D

Why did I decide to write about this all of a sudden. Because I realized that in the past 2 months I've learned to appreciate the little things more and more. :D

So here's to the little things...like having dinner, going to the grocery, having our hair cuts together and finishing our work together. It's the little things that make the world the amazing place that it is. :D

Here's to more Valentine dates! :D

I hate nightmares. :( They leave you feeling horrible the next day and you just really don't get any rest. I wonder when I can finally get done and over with this. It leaves me very lethargic and feeling ominous the next day. Not happy. :(

The little things...

Sometimes when life gets too fast paced and there are too many things going on and everything just seems to be too big you tend to forget about the little things. That's what happened to me last week. Friday was a very emotional day filled with disappointments add to that the fact that I was being very hormonal. It was dramafest all over. But then before sleeping I prayed about it and woke up feeling a tad better.

Life is filled with disappointments, there are just some things beyond my control. When I woke up I reminded myself that what I did control was how I would react to things. Happiness is always a choice. And though I must admit that it took me most of the day just sitting around watching Shameless before I decided to get up and move to the bedroom to take a nap. Haha...to give you perspective, the bu just got in from duty and was napping too so I didn't want to disturb his nap by waking him up. See, sooooo thoughful. I managed to snap myself out of all the drama.

When everything seems to be going wrong the best way to deal with it is to remind yourself that no one is more in control of your happiness than yourself. After an extremely sad end to my work-week my weekend was awesome because it's the little things that make life worthwhile. Take for example spending the entire weekend with my now public servant bu. Finally getting to watch a movie that you've both been raring to catch. Being even more impressed with the movie despite the already high expectations. Spending time with your godchildren even if it was just for a little while. All awesome things packed into an awesome weekend.

Without the hardships, disappointments, heartbreaks I would have never been able to appreciate things the way I appreciate them now. Never loose sight of the little things because in the end, it's really the little things that make life awesome. Here's the looking forward to more weekend breaks with the bu. :D

It's just not my day...

When I was younger I would always pray to God for a sign. Whatever it was, be it my chinese test, "Lord give me a sign if I will pass this test", or a crush, "Lord please give me a sign that we were meant for each other". Everything in my life needed a sign...and then you realize that signs are everywhere. Once you start looking for signs they just seem to be all over the place. And it dawned on me, every sign that I wanted to see is me somehow interpreting things the way I want them to be interpreted. So I grew up and I learned not to ask for signs anymore. I learned to trust in God because whatever life throws at me I know there has got to be a reason for it.

Today was not a good day. 

It started out great but everything quickly turned horrible. I don't even know how to begin to explain how I'm feeling right now. Hurt. Exhausted. Disappointed. Rejected. Those are just some of the adjectives I can think of right now but I it doesn't really sum it up. Right now as I type this though I just feel empty, lost. I know these things have a way of working themselves out and I believe that things happen for a reason. But allow me this one day to feel horrible about it and maybe tomorrow when the day starts anew I can get a fresh perspective and see things a little bit lighter.

Today was a horrible day...but there's always tomorrow.