I was having a conversation with the bu last night on they way home and I realized just how lucky I am to have him in my life. You see, our situation recently has been less than ideal. I can't say anything more than that. If we're close enough, you would know without having to ask, if you don't know, well then, that's just that, you weren't meant to know.
I realized that the way to truly love someone is to trust them to be the best person they can be and in the process, learn from them as they learn from you. I have had to grow up real fast in the last couple of years. I had to be the responsible one, although I do recognize that there is so much more growing up that needs to be done. I learned how to survive, I learned how to support, I learned of the realities of life and having to figure out how to get through them. I went through a rough patch. I went through a crazy time and it's something that I'm not proud of. But I'm blessed to have someone who was there for me in the end. I am loved and for that I am lucky.
Love is allowing growth. Giving enough space to breathe but knowing that you'll always be there. When i first started thinking of things to post. I had tons of ideas...but it all boiled down to one. When you have people who love you and support you, everything is possible. And whatever the world may think of you, it shouldn't matter.
I feel sad thinking that somewhere out there people don't have what I have, support, family, friends. It's hard to think about it but it's reality. Not everyone is lucky enough. When I am able, I will hopefully be able to help. Think of ways to spread the love. We all should. Think of this way, if we all supported a stranger, at least one random stranger everyday, won't we have a more happy and peaceful world. Now...to get a movement started. Won't that be something.
The pay it forward idea is nothing new, but it's something taken for granted. So today, let me try it. I will do something nice for a stranger and hope to God that whoever that person may be, they do the same thing for the next stranger they meet. :)
Here's to the hope of a better tom! :)
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Blessings! :)
Good things come to those who wait! :) That's a lot coming from someone as impatient as me. But seriously, I have been working in the new company for about two months now. :) And things are starting to pick up. :)
I had my first ever event last weekend. It was for the SM Cyberzone Tech Fair. We did it in three malls simultaneously. :) Yup, you heard me, simultaneously. :) How cool is that! :)
On top of that there's two other account that we're working on that's already kicked off. :) I can't wait! :)
Thank you God for all my blessings! :) I can't wait for more to come! :)
I had my first ever event last weekend. It was for the SM Cyberzone Tech Fair. We did it in three malls simultaneously. :) Yup, you heard me, simultaneously. :) How cool is that! :)
On top of that there's two other account that we're working on that's already kicked off. :) I can't wait! :)
Thank you God for all my blessings! :) I can't wait for more to come! :)
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Cheesecaking it with the bu...
I've been dying to make cheesecake for a week now. It's one of the bu's favorite desserts and well, who better to cook for than him. I was on the road to Clark for work when I ended up talking about cheesecake with my friend Pam. She explained to me how easy it was so I was curious.
I love the fact that you don't really have to bake the cheesecake, there are a lot of no bake recipes on the internet. So I bought the ingredients and because it was already late had to postpone it until I had free time again.
After obsessing the entire week today seemed like the perfect time to make it. I was at home, awake early and well, bored. So I made the bu help me, although he was being difficult and a know it all again, and we made our first cheesecake together! :)
Just had some of it awhile ago and I must say. It is delish..haha...but I may be biased. We're still trying to figure out what we can top it with when we eat it. Probably going to end up being jam. haha...will keep you posted.
Until my next culinary adventure! :) Grubs up!
I love the fact that you don't really have to bake the cheesecake, there are a lot of no bake recipes on the internet. So I bought the ingredients and because it was already late had to postpone it until I had free time again.
After obsessing the entire week today seemed like the perfect time to make it. I was at home, awake early and well, bored. So I made the bu help me, although he was being difficult and a know it all again, and we made our first cheesecake together! :)
Just had some of it awhile ago and I must say. It is delish..haha...but I may be biased. We're still trying to figure out what we can top it with when we eat it. Probably going to end up being jam. haha...will keep you posted.
Until my next culinary adventure! :) Grubs up!
Friday, August 13, 2010
The Human Camera: Steven Wiltshire
The bu showed me a video this evening. It was of a savant, a rare condition in which people with developmental disorders have one or more areas of expertise, ability, or brilliance that are in contrast with the individual's overall limitations, who drew a 5 yard detailed panoramic picture of Rome. It was amazing. You have to see it.
Our society does not understand the world of those who are special. :) This is an amazing preview of how a savant adult can wow the world. Take a moment to watch him...
I have a soft spot for children with autism. When I was a college student I decided that I would try preschool for my practicum. I was a psychology major and this was one of the options for those in our course. I fell in love with the children from the first step I took into the classroom. It was amazing.
Then I graduated and decided I would become a preschool teacher. If you knew back when I myself used to be a student you would never have seen this coming. I was the worst student ever. My teachers had the hardest time with me. But in the end, this just made me appreciate them more.
In my first teaching job at a high end international preschool I used to be a shadow teacher for a highly functioning autistic child. He was 7 although at that time his mental age was probably around 3-4. He had trouble speaking and feeling skin sensations. You had to hold him tightly and brush his arms to calm him down. You had to speak to him the way you would speak to a 3 year old, you had to be more patient. It was hard. It was painful, I remember being sick one day and I was sitting with him and he stood up, walked to a far place and ran back towards me, I was so excited only to feel a remarkably heavy hand hit me right smack in the middle of my head. Working with Special Children had it's disadvantages, especially for the thin weak teachers like me. But what made me fall in love with teaching was the fact that one day, while waiting for his other classmates to come in...my little boy spoke his first full sentence on his own. It was amazing, I was nearly in tears. You see all your hardwork pay off and then everything you had to go through just melted away. All that mattered was that I was there, he was there and I helped him learn.
Sadly, I'm not teaching anymore although it is something I terribly miss. I miss my students who have made me fall in love with them. I miss my favorites who despite their naughtiness are the sweetest, smartest things God has ever put in this world. My only wish is that one day, everyone get to experience what it's like to live like a child. Carefree and innocent. :)
Our society does not understand the world of those who are special. :) This is an amazing preview of how a savant adult can wow the world. Take a moment to watch him...
I have a soft spot for children with autism. When I was a college student I decided that I would try preschool for my practicum. I was a psychology major and this was one of the options for those in our course. I fell in love with the children from the first step I took into the classroom. It was amazing.
Then I graduated and decided I would become a preschool teacher. If you knew back when I myself used to be a student you would never have seen this coming. I was the worst student ever. My teachers had the hardest time with me. But in the end, this just made me appreciate them more.
In my first teaching job at a high end international preschool I used to be a shadow teacher for a highly functioning autistic child. He was 7 although at that time his mental age was probably around 3-4. He had trouble speaking and feeling skin sensations. You had to hold him tightly and brush his arms to calm him down. You had to speak to him the way you would speak to a 3 year old, you had to be more patient. It was hard. It was painful, I remember being sick one day and I was sitting with him and he stood up, walked to a far place and ran back towards me, I was so excited only to feel a remarkably heavy hand hit me right smack in the middle of my head. Working with Special Children had it's disadvantages, especially for the thin weak teachers like me. But what made me fall in love with teaching was the fact that one day, while waiting for his other classmates to come in...my little boy spoke his first full sentence on his own. It was amazing, I was nearly in tears. You see all your hardwork pay off and then everything you had to go through just melted away. All that mattered was that I was there, he was there and I helped him learn.
Sadly, I'm not teaching anymore although it is something I terribly miss. I miss my students who have made me fall in love with them. I miss my favorites who despite their naughtiness are the sweetest, smartest things God has ever put in this world. My only wish is that one day, everyone get to experience what it's like to live like a child. Carefree and innocent. :)
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Giants...
When I was growing up I looked up to my parents. They were my heroes. They did everything the right way. They made the best decisions. They were everything I wanted to be when I grow up. That's still the case, except for the growing up part since I really do think I am grown up. Most of the time. :)
But through the years I've met people whom I have grown to admire. People who amaze me with the way they lead their lives. They do so many things and yet they're still grounded. They're still...human. :)
Let me give you a couple examples.
There's Patricia Bermudez-Hizon. :) I super love how she's such a full time mom. She's really involved with her kids. That's two boys but above that she still has this NGO that she started and continues to run. She also supports this orphanage full on. She's a sportscaster, a host. She owns a travel agency and she can do events. Aside from that, she has a big heart that's always willing to give. See, just listing all that down, whew. What more if you were living it. Then you get to meet her in person. She's super down to earth. The only time she ever brags is when she talks about her kids and it's not bragging, it's just being proud.
Then there's my cousin Nikki. She's living her dream. She's travelling, going to all these places and getting paid to do it. She has a wonderfully smart daughter who's hilarious! :) She's 2 but talks to you like she's 20. She's amazingly intuitive, much like her mom when she was growing up. I can't explain it, but in my generation, she's the one to look up to.
Then on the other hand...there are these people who are just well, not like them. Have you ever met someone who makes himself feel better by making others feel bad? They're not fun to be around. It's pretty tiring actually. I really do not understand the need to belittle anyone. If you were any good at whatever it is that you're saying then you don't need to talk about it, it will just show.
I'm not talking about any one person in particular, mind you. It was just a mere observation. I've met these kinds of people, a lot of them and sometimes I can't help but think how sad it must be to live a life where you always have to prove yourself.
One thing I'll remember when I have kids of my own is to show them to have pride in what they accomplish but to do so humbly because in the end, those who are too proud will find no one to brag to when everyone has grown tired of the same old story. :)
But through the years I've met people whom I have grown to admire. People who amaze me with the way they lead their lives. They do so many things and yet they're still grounded. They're still...human. :)
Let me give you a couple examples.
There's Patricia Bermudez-Hizon. :) I super love how she's such a full time mom. She's really involved with her kids. That's two boys but above that she still has this NGO that she started and continues to run. She also supports this orphanage full on. She's a sportscaster, a host. She owns a travel agency and she can do events. Aside from that, she has a big heart that's always willing to give. See, just listing all that down, whew. What more if you were living it. Then you get to meet her in person. She's super down to earth. The only time she ever brags is when she talks about her kids and it's not bragging, it's just being proud.
Then there's my cousin Nikki. She's living her dream. She's travelling, going to all these places and getting paid to do it. She has a wonderfully smart daughter who's hilarious! :) She's 2 but talks to you like she's 20. She's amazingly intuitive, much like her mom when she was growing up. I can't explain it, but in my generation, she's the one to look up to.
Then on the other hand...there are these people who are just well, not like them. Have you ever met someone who makes himself feel better by making others feel bad? They're not fun to be around. It's pretty tiring actually. I really do not understand the need to belittle anyone. If you were any good at whatever it is that you're saying then you don't need to talk about it, it will just show.
I'm not talking about any one person in particular, mind you. It was just a mere observation. I've met these kinds of people, a lot of them and sometimes I can't help but think how sad it must be to live a life where you always have to prove yourself.
One thing I'll remember when I have kids of my own is to show them to have pride in what they accomplish but to do so humbly because in the end, those who are too proud will find no one to brag to when everyone has grown tired of the same old story. :)
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Expose shows...are they really helpful or are they all hype?
There are more than 3 expose shows in the Philippines. Both major stations have one and well, smaller stations have them on as well.
I get the whole facination people have with them. It's the same way that people are so into "reality shows" because everyone has this need to see other people's lives. It's more real...or so it's what they want us to believe. But unlike most reality shows, expose shows have a goal. To help the less fortunate fight those with obvious powers compared to them...or so that's what they want us to believe.
Don't get me wrong, I believe people should have a place to run to when they have nothing else. I agree with that. But let me explain.
I have watched more than 1 episode of these expose shows. They are interesting. They have a lot of cases that are unique and well, eye opening. But recently I've been given the chance to see one of the expose shows more closely and boy was a surprised.
Expose shows are sensationalized journalism. They get all these complaints and all these pleas for help in a day and they have to respond and do something about it. i get that. But what I don't understand is why they don't do their jobs, find out the truth. That's what journalism is about right? Getting to the bottom of things and understanding it without judgement and bias. But what they do is respond routinely by reporting it to the proper authorities. Yes, that's what is expected of them and that is the right thing to do, but they don't even bother to get the other side of the story. Where's the journalism in that? They should do their jobs and investigate then expose those that need to be exposed. I hope they keep that in mind before they do anything that might harm other people, their reputations or their lives.
But that's just my point of view...
I get the whole facination people have with them. It's the same way that people are so into "reality shows" because everyone has this need to see other people's lives. It's more real...or so it's what they want us to believe. But unlike most reality shows, expose shows have a goal. To help the less fortunate fight those with obvious powers compared to them...or so that's what they want us to believe.
Don't get me wrong, I believe people should have a place to run to when they have nothing else. I agree with that. But let me explain.
I have watched more than 1 episode of these expose shows. They are interesting. They have a lot of cases that are unique and well, eye opening. But recently I've been given the chance to see one of the expose shows more closely and boy was a surprised.
Expose shows are sensationalized journalism. They get all these complaints and all these pleas for help in a day and they have to respond and do something about it. i get that. But what I don't understand is why they don't do their jobs, find out the truth. That's what journalism is about right? Getting to the bottom of things and understanding it without judgement and bias. But what they do is respond routinely by reporting it to the proper authorities. Yes, that's what is expected of them and that is the right thing to do, but they don't even bother to get the other side of the story. Where's the journalism in that? They should do their jobs and investigate then expose those that need to be exposed. I hope they keep that in mind before they do anything that might harm other people, their reputations or their lives.
But that's just my point of view...
Working on a weekend
Saturdays are usually spent for having fun. Like going to get a massage or shopping. Unfortunately, I have work today. I actually had plans to do something else but the client is asking us to do something and so today we're hauling our asses off to the province and making the most out of it.
Usually I'd complain but my client is really nice. They asked nicely and they don't really demand. Hence the reason why this isn't so hard to do. If only we could stop by the shopping places before heading home. hahaha...but that would only mean getting home later, so fine. Maybe next week. :P
I believe there are two types of clients, there are those who feel that they have to make the most out of what they pay you and therefor make you work yourself to the bone and there are those who appreciate your hard work, ask you to do things nicely and keeps thanking you for a job well done. See, these clients ask you to do the same amount of work yet the latter always makes you feel like it's your choice to do so and quite frankly from working in the service industry for 4 years. It's definitely something I would do gladly if I liked you. Haha...better results as well.
So I must prepare for this road trip and keep telling myself this will be over soon. hahaha...
Usually I'd complain but my client is really nice. They asked nicely and they don't really demand. Hence the reason why this isn't so hard to do. If only we could stop by the shopping places before heading home. hahaha...but that would only mean getting home later, so fine. Maybe next week. :P
I believe there are two types of clients, there are those who feel that they have to make the most out of what they pay you and therefor make you work yourself to the bone and there are those who appreciate your hard work, ask you to do things nicely and keeps thanking you for a job well done. See, these clients ask you to do the same amount of work yet the latter always makes you feel like it's your choice to do so and quite frankly from working in the service industry for 4 years. It's definitely something I would do gladly if I liked you. Haha...better results as well.
So I must prepare for this road trip and keep telling myself this will be over soon. hahaha...
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Moving on...
I am mad. Very. I have been trying to be patient and nice and well, mature. But sometimes you get pushed and in the end...you snap and they get what they're asking for.
Breathe in. Breathe out. I can do this.
Dear Jess, I need you. Please help me not go back to angry-angsty me. I am over that. Thank you.
Breathe in. Breathe out. I can do this.
Dear Jess, I need you. Please help me not go back to angry-angsty me. I am over that. Thank you.
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
STOP THIS EVIL ACT! STOP TAMBUCHO KILLING
This video is not for the weak of heart:
http://youtu.be/UNJ6dB_G90I
This is why we should #saynototambuchokilling
I can't believe our government will even condone this inhumane and cruel way of putting down unwanted animals. HELP US STOP THE MADNESS.
Also visit: www.paws.com.ph
***from the blog of Patricia Hizon. :) www.patriciahizon.blogspot.com
Please visit http://www.thepetitionsite.com/1/tambucho-gassing-is-not-euthanasia and sign the petition to have this law retracted. We are not helping these animals. This is torture.
I signed already, help us save animal lives.
http://youtu.be/UNJ6dB_G90I
This is why we should #saynototambuchokilling
I can't believe our government will even condone this inhumane and cruel way of putting down unwanted animals. HELP US STOP THE MADNESS.
Also visit: www.paws.com.ph
***from the blog of Patricia Hizon. :) www.patriciahizon.blogspot.com
Please visit http://www.thepetitionsite.com/1/tambucho-gassing-is-not-euthanasia and sign the petition to have this law retracted. We are not helping these animals. This is torture.
I signed already, help us save animal lives.
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Heart break...
Family to me is the most important thing. I grew up surrounded by family. I am close to my first cousins on my mom's side. I love my cousins on my dad's side despite the distance, I grew up in Manila they grew up in the States. I love my aunts, my uncles, my grandparents. I love everybody. My family is my life. If I were given a chance to have a family of my own, my only wish is to be able to give my kids all the love I felt growing up.
Recently however, I have not been getting along with the bu's family, not everyone, just a very select few. I wont go into detail. It is very personal and unless we're close friends you don't need to know. My heart breaks thinking about it. I don't want for the bu to be put in a position where he will have to take a side. I will never let that happen because in the end as I said family is the most important. My only wish is for things to settle. Let cooler heads come and let things go. I made mistakes but I was also wronged.
It's hard. To be put in this position, where you don't know what to do anymore. I want to live a peaceful life. I want to be happy. I am actually. :) I am in a much better place. I like what I do, I spend time with the people I love, doing the things I love to do. :) But wouldn't it be better if you were able to share things with the people you hold most dear. I only wish for things to go back to the way they were. If only. I will keep praying. I have done my part. Now all I can do is let God take hold of the situation. Whatever His will may be. :)
Let it be said however, that the bu has been the most adult of all and because of everything I love him more. :) Thank you bu, for being the best person in the world. For loving, listening and understanding. For telling me what's right and what's wrong. For trying to understand where I am coming from, for being there for me. You are my rock and you will continue to be. I love you!
Recently however, I have not been getting along with the bu's family, not everyone, just a very select few. I wont go into detail. It is very personal and unless we're close friends you don't need to know. My heart breaks thinking about it. I don't want for the bu to be put in a position where he will have to take a side. I will never let that happen because in the end as I said family is the most important. My only wish is for things to settle. Let cooler heads come and let things go. I made mistakes but I was also wronged.
It's hard. To be put in this position, where you don't know what to do anymore. I want to live a peaceful life. I want to be happy. I am actually. :) I am in a much better place. I like what I do, I spend time with the people I love, doing the things I love to do. :) But wouldn't it be better if you were able to share things with the people you hold most dear. I only wish for things to go back to the way they were. If only. I will keep praying. I have done my part. Now all I can do is let God take hold of the situation. Whatever His will may be. :)
Let it be said however, that the bu has been the most adult of all and because of everything I love him more. :) Thank you bu, for being the best person in the world. For loving, listening and understanding. For telling me what's right and what's wrong. For trying to understand where I am coming from, for being there for me. You are my rock and you will continue to be. I love you!
My take on SALT
The bu and I made an effort to watch Salt last Friday. I say made an effort cause I was really feeling sick and was coming down with the flu. It was a good thing my parents were in Cubao and I was able to ask them to take me to Eastwood. :)
Salt was a good movie. It wasn't the best I've seen but it was a good movie to watch in the cinema. I like Angelina Jolie in movies although I don't really like the fact that she stole Brad Pitt from Jeniffer when they were still married. But I digress.
The movie was very well written. The fact that they didn't give away the story in the trailer was also amazing. I loved how they kept you guessing which way the story would go as it progressed. Angelina Jolie also played the role of Evelyn Salt very well and I couldn't imagine it having been played by anyone else. She's really the top female action star and she can really pull it off. Makes me wonder what type of person she is in real life when she's caught in a jam.
Sometimes it makes me wonder, I'm sure it would be hard for someone who's very popular to find friends who will want to be her friend because of who she is and not because she's a celebrity. But on the other hand, I wonder how friends will know if the celebrity is really their friend or if she's being just that...a celebrity. Hehe...complicated world they live in.
Off track once again. Sorry about that. Going back to Salt, I personally enjoyed watching it and would recommend it to those who like watching action movies. This movie was packed with action scenes. The only thing that had me wondering was how Angelina kept jumping from floor to floor in the elevator shaft. She should have broken her bones. But then again...that's why it's a movie. Just wasn't realistic. Other than that. Everything else was good! :)
Til the next movie.
Salt was a good movie. It wasn't the best I've seen but it was a good movie to watch in the cinema. I like Angelina Jolie in movies although I don't really like the fact that she stole Brad Pitt from Jeniffer when they were still married. But I digress.
The movie was very well written. The fact that they didn't give away the story in the trailer was also amazing. I loved how they kept you guessing which way the story would go as it progressed. Angelina Jolie also played the role of Evelyn Salt very well and I couldn't imagine it having been played by anyone else. She's really the top female action star and she can really pull it off. Makes me wonder what type of person she is in real life when she's caught in a jam.
Sometimes it makes me wonder, I'm sure it would be hard for someone who's very popular to find friends who will want to be her friend because of who she is and not because she's a celebrity. But on the other hand, I wonder how friends will know if the celebrity is really their friend or if she's being just that...a celebrity. Hehe...complicated world they live in.
Off track once again. Sorry about that. Going back to Salt, I personally enjoyed watching it and would recommend it to those who like watching action movies. This movie was packed with action scenes. The only thing that had me wondering was how Angelina kept jumping from floor to floor in the elevator shaft. She should have broken her bones. But then again...that's why it's a movie. Just wasn't realistic. Other than that. Everything else was good! :)
Til the next movie.
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