Family to me is the most important thing. I grew up surrounded by family. I am close to my first cousins on my mom's side. I love my cousins on my dad's side despite the distance, I grew up in Manila they grew up in the States. I love my aunts, my uncles, my grandparents. I love everybody. My family is my life. If I were given a chance to have a family of my own, my only wish is to be able to give my kids all the love I felt growing up.
Recently however, I have not been getting along with the bu's family, not everyone, just a very select few. I wont go into detail. It is very personal and unless we're close friends you don't need to know. My heart breaks thinking about it. I don't want for the bu to be put in a position where he will have to take a side. I will never let that happen because in the end as I said family is the most important. My only wish is for things to settle. Let cooler heads come and let things go. I made mistakes but I was also wronged.
It's hard. To be put in this position, where you don't know what to do anymore. I want to live a peaceful life. I want to be happy. I am actually. :) I am in a much better place. I like what I do, I spend time with the people I love, doing the things I love to do. :) But wouldn't it be better if you were able to share things with the people you hold most dear. I only wish for things to go back to the way they were. If only. I will keep praying. I have done my part. Now all I can do is let God take hold of the situation. Whatever His will may be. :)
Let it be said however, that the bu has been the most adult of all and because of everything I love him more. :) Thank you bu, for being the best person in the world. For loving, listening and understanding. For telling me what's right and what's wrong. For trying to understand where I am coming from, for being there for me. You are my rock and you will continue to be. I love you!
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