Being the New Girl

One of the major things I was worried about before I started working was that I would be known as the "new girl" and that freaked me out. A lot.

This is my frist time to work in a company that had this many people working together. I haven't really been able to count how many we are...hahaha, people might think that I'm weird if they realize I'm counting them. But we're significantly more compared to my old company. :) So, you now get the picture of why I'm scared of being the "new girl". There's so many of them and I'm the only one, it's that feeling you get when you enter a class as a transfer student and you know they all have friends already and you have to figure out where you belong. It's a big deal.

My temporary desk is situated in one corner, right beside the creatives guys. The accounts team however is on the other side of the room, away from my corner. They're the team I'm supposed to work with. Add to that the fact that my corner is actually sort of like a mini hallway where you have to walk a few steps to see the rest of the room. So...I'm virtually alone. I don't really know if this is a good thing, or a bad thing, but at least it gives me the chance to acclimate, observe and learn how they work without being right in the middle of it.

The con however is that I don't get to interact with my officemates as much meaning this whole "new girl" phase might actually take longer than expected. The only time I get to talk to them is during lunch break and I must say, they make an effort to be nice to me. :) They're really friendly and you don't really feel shy to say stuff like I would normally be. I know, I know...nothing like the real me. But that's how I am when I'm new at some place. I keep quiet and observe til I feel comfortable enough to be myself. It takes a lot of time. Some things in my life I'm still not comfortable with despite the fact that it's been almost a century. But that's a different story altogether.

What I'm most thankful for is the fact that I know God is with me through this whole process. I got a day off in the middle of the week. Something most people wouldn't get. It was a break from something that was new, a relapse into the comfortable zone. And I tell you, it was something that I needed very much. :) It helped a lot, because at least I'm not edgy all the time. I'm on my guard all the time when I'm at the office. A survival thing I guess, when you're still not familiar with your surroundings. :) So a midweek break was very welcome indeed.

Now most of my friends have been asking me where I'm working. I've actually not been saying anything out of respect for my old boss. I wanted her to get comfortable with the idea first before anyone knew about the details. So I apologize for all the secrecy. Don't get me wrong, I love my new company and everything about it, I just want to be sure that it wouldn't hurt anyone once word got out. :)

I'll keep you hanging for a bit longer. Just a bit until I feel that it's ok. Soon enough. Who knows, we might all be surprised.